It’s time to come face to face with MYSELF.

It’s easy to pretend like you have it all together. I hope I never come across like that, I WISH I COULD — but there is always a closet or a drawer stuffed with junk (metaphorically or literally) that I’m pretending doesn’t exist. I struggle every single day in different ways, and I truly believe I’ve been in a darker season of my life in the couple years — but I’ve been to DARKER PLACES, and the big man always, always, always is faithful and uses those dark seasons to lead us to the brightest light. (I’ve learned this only from experience)

After struggling with body image and food in my early twenties and finally becoming healthy and independent — now being 15 pounds heavier than my FITTEST self is a huge blow to my confidence — especially as a coach. I know SO many can relate to this idea, whether you’ve reached your goal weight in the past or not.

What I’ve come to learn and appreciate about Beachbody and the community that we are able to create as individuals and groups is that this isn’t about PERFECTION, and I’m living the lesson as I slowly continue to get stronger within myself everyday.

It’s been too long since I’ve shared my personal fitness journey because I’ve been afraid.

• I’ve been afraid to step out into the light and be judged.
• I’ve been afraid to admit that I haven’t valued myself enough to put my own health and happiness first.
• I’ve been afraid to let other people down.
• I’ve been afraid to confront the demons that I have about my own worth and share them publicly.

I started losing myself when I lost sight of my dream. I was going through the motions and realized that I didn’t have an end goal — I didn’t have a REASON to fight, I was letting other people’s versions of success, ideal image of beauty and opinions (and “perceived opinions”) take over my habits and paralyze me. It’s been a LONG time since I’ve felt like I was JUST DOING SOMETHING FOR ME.

My throat is closing and my eyes are welling up with tears, but it’s time to restart my journey and share it WITHOUT FEAR of looking like a failure, like I wasn’t strong enough or “committed enough” in the first place and to RE-INSPIRE MYSELF and others … but myself first and foremost.

I know there are hundreds of you reading this that may never click “LIKE” but feel afraid in some way to recommit. It may be to your faith, to your fitness, to your DREAM, to your marriage, to your friendships, to your family or to just simply loving yourself for EXACTLY who God made you to be. I can’t let you give up, and I can’t let the fear of judgement from negative people (who are out there, loud and proud) stop us from reaching the heights we deserve to reach and becoming the people we were designed to become.

Dreams are renewable.

No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.

I’m RENEWING my dream to feel STRONG and HEALTHY above all else and honor my body first and foremost so I can show up to be the best me for the people I am blessed enough to have in my life.

I URGE you today to RENEW YOUR DREAM TOO. No matter where you are, it’s time to unwrap and begin building that dream in your heart.